First two weeks of college

It's been two weeks since I started college, I've been feeling a little homesick, missing my parents, I've always been someone who stays in home, didn't have many friends, and I can't wait to see my mom again and just being alone for a while, I like feeling like a child with my mother by my side, I am not fully comfortable in this new place, my roommates are noisy and I don't talk to them very much, I stopped playing my videogames for a while (left Pokemon moon half played, hopefully I will resume it by July, but I've been playing more Fate Stay Night since I'm not reading any books), also I want to keep learning japanese and digital drawing, and of course I'm trying to concentrate more on my studies so I can pass this first semester and be able to stay at home in July and august. My most productive times are when I'm feeling down or bored, I try to work more for when things get better again, that´s why I started japanese again and I´ve been thinking about buying a violin for next year.
I am eating bread, cold boiled steakes and apples to try to save money and buy some things I want (mostly books) , but my college is pretty good and I am making friends there, maybe next year I'll move in with one of them, it would be more comfortable than the place I'm at right now.

In these two weeks I haven't masturbated or even thought about it, I guess I have been too occupied with my studies, and also, living with roommates is the best thing to control that habit, I think this time is for real, my porn addiction isn't bothering me at all.

But the bad side is that I am alone in a big city with lots of gorgeous college girls around and my balls are only getting fuller. I can't see myself with a girlfriend or even having sex with a girl, I know a normal relationship with a girl wouldn't work out for me, I've been almost two years reading blogs about succubi and I prefer that kind of relationship over a girlfriend. But these last two weeks (probably because I seem to be getting better at my porn thing) I've been noticing girls more often than before and more intensely, and wondering how it would be like to have a girlfriend, and sometimes I just think about having sex, it's like I'm twelve again. And frankly, in the state I am right now I don't now if I'll be able to resist the temptation if I ever get the opportunity.
But I know I can't have a girlfriend, I'm just not suited for it, the boyfriend life doesn't match me. That's why I still want a succubus in my life, although I can't see me getting one very soon, I'm not comfortable enough in this new place to really try to get one.