Update

So, these past days I've been feeling a bit down, less energetic, without much motivation to exercise like I used to (which wasn't very much either, just jogging around the block), and my succubus motivation has suffered a bit too, I always seem to enter this lazy and unmotivated states for some time every six months or so for no real reason. But I wont let that stop me, just gotta get back on track.
The good news is that my nofap streak is at two weeks now. It's been hard, I wanted to focus my sexual potential into summoning a succubus, but it's getting hard not to think about masturbation, that's what my brain was used to. I don't really feel the need for sex, I'm feeling the craving to watch hentai. But that´s normal, I have to fight these cravings to overcome my addiction.
I know I have to focus my sexual desire towards wanting to have sex with a succubus, but I'm not being able to think about making love to a spiritual partner because I never made it before, I never really loved someone and I don´t know how it feels.

Next month I will be starting college and I'll have to move to another city. I'll be sleeping in a bedroom with two roommates, I don't know what's going to happen if I get a succubus by that time, I can't have spiritual sex in a shared bedroom, all I could do is daily meditation to contact her. I also don't want to get obsessed over being always with her like some bloggers reported, I am going there to study and I can't put that aside
Because of that sometimes I think that maybe it's not the right time to try to summon one but I really want a spiritual girlfriend now, I have zero interest in having a relationship with a girl.
I don't want to wait five years when my studies will be over to have my astral girl but I know that these things have to be made in privacy, something I won't have for quite some time.


I gess this is all for today, just an update to keep things flowing in the blog.
 See you later Leo, get your lazy ass to work!