Update

So, these past days I've been feeling a bit down, less energetic, without much motivation to exercise like I used to (which wasn't very much either, just jogging around the block), and my succubus motivation has suffered a bit too, I always seem to enter this lazy and unmotivated states for some time every six months or so for no real reason. But I wont let that stop me, just gotta get back on track.
The good news is that my nofap streak is at two weeks now. It's been hard, I wanted to focus my sexual potential into summoning a succubus, but it's getting hard not to think about masturbation, that's what my brain was used to. I don't really feel the need for sex, I'm feeling the craving to watch hentai. But that´s normal, I have to fight these cravings to overcome my addiction.
I know I have to focus my sexual desire towards wanting to have sex with a succubus, but I'm not being able to think about making love to a spiritual partner because I never made it before, I never really loved someone and I don´t know how it feels.

Next month I will be starting college and I'll have to move to another city. I'll be sleeping in a bedroom with two roommates, I don't know what's going to happen if I get a succubus by that time, I can't have spiritual sex in a shared bedroom, all I could do is daily meditation to contact her. I also don't want to get obsessed over being always with her like some bloggers reported, I am going there to study and I can't put that aside
Because of that sometimes I think that maybe it's not the right time to try to summon one but I really want a spiritual girlfriend now, I have zero interest in having a relationship with a girl.
I don't want to wait five years when my studies will be over to have my astral girl but I know that these things have to be made in privacy, something I won't have for quite some time.


I gess this is all for today, just an update to keep things flowing in the blog.
 See you later Leo, get your lazy ass to work!

Changing my lifestyle

I wish I could say that I did the meditation excercises everyday since the last post.
Like I said, I'm a huge procastinator. I'm addicted to porn, I tend to masturbate almost three times a day, and after that I feel depresed and often stay up until 2a.m. playing videogames or mindlessly browsing.
There were so many things I wanted to do this summer holydays but my porn and internet addiction just didn't let me do anything, I 've spent so much of my time doing nothing, I'm doing less and less exercise each day.
The times I've tried to meditate I would just lay down and try to focus on my succubus for a minute after falling asleep without realising.

I know I won't get anywhere with this lifestyle, It's time to change it, starting by a digital detox, I won't use internet for a few days, being bored will be good for me, letting my mind wonder, it will give me time to think and refocus on what is important, on how I want the rest of my life to be like.
I have to stop losing time and stop watching porn for good. Started no fap today,  day 1 YAY!
I have to use my sexual energy on my succubus summoning, give it all to her

Good luck Leo, I believe in you!

Introduction

Hi, I´m an 18 years old pretty boring guy, I've never had any connection to the supernatural and I know barely nothing about it, though it's very interesting and I really want to learn more about it.
I´ve been reading a lot of blogs about  wonderful relationships with succubi and loving spirits. I really want to experience the same, that infinite and powerful love that no woman in this world could provide.
I have been interested in it for well over a year now and I think I  have a pretty good understanding about how to summon them, and my goal is to have a relationship with one by the end of the year.

This blog is for me, to document every important thing that could happen during my journey, and primarly as a way to keep me motivated untill I'm sure I made contact with one (I tend to procrastinate a lot), and I know it shouldn´t take too long if I really pour my heart into it.

So today I'll start off by meditating in bed and visualising my future spiritual lover, to start preparing myself for a more serious summoning ritual down the road.

Off we go!